Immaturity

Hi, hello. I started reading this book by Mel Blackaby called "Going the Second Mile" it talks about not going the second mile by burning yourself out trying to be a "good" person. There are enough "good" people in this world who aren't even Christians but it talks about going the second mile by experiencing the Love of Jesus Christ to such an extent that you spread His love just because you have His love in you and you want to share it with other people. The author also talks about a moment when God asked him why he only ever came to him when he needed help. I felt that this was speaking directly at me. I tend to often cry out to Jesus when I need His help with something or am having a rough time. Even while reading this book I said to God "Help me to be able to experience your Love so that I can travel the second mile with You". I realized that even while I try to get a deeper relationship with God I still am crying out for help. I had a thought the other day that I believe came from God, I thought that I am immature just like a teenager. I come to the Father every time I need something but otherwise, unfortunately, have a tendency to ignore my Parent. I am immature. Sometimes immaturity his a benefit and it enables us to have the wonder and awe of a child. The imagination of a child and the ideas like a child. Children trust their parents and learn and talk with them. They need them to grow but somewhere in there a teenager takes place and they tend to (not all) just use their parents when they need them. Then there are adults who think that they are finished learning and are too good for help. We need to have the faith of a child. Never stop wanting to grow or learn. Being a teenager in our faith isn't really very good so what I need to do is grow by growing backwards if that makes sense at all. I need to have the child like faith that will enable me to trust my Father and at the same time I need to grow into an adult and come away from the teen years. I guess we need to be able to talk to God normally and look at Him just like a child cause that is what we all are and we will never stop growing and learning. I am sorry if I ended up rambling on and on there but I am sleepy and what I was trying to say made more sense in my head so I sincerely hope that you understood the entire point of this post.