Hope

Hi, hello. Life is filled with mystery, twists and turns. Life is a roller coaster it has its ups and downs. If there was no roller coaster I think that wouldn't be a good thing. When a heart beat flat lines it means the person has died so I think that if someone's life is flat lining then it means that they don't feel the sorrows of life or the joys either and I believe that we need to experience both of those to truly live. I have sort of gotten side tracked. The point I am trying to make is that even in the darkest hour of our lives and the saddest or scariest we always have hope. Did you know that there is a small section of the brain that is designed specifically for hope? God placed it there. Then we can hope that tomorrow will be better than today, hope that our loved ones who perished knew that it was their time to go and have no regrets, the hope that one day we can see our dear loved ones again in a better place. Whenever life gets you down, reach up and grasp the hand of the almighty. He is always there to pull you back up to the surface no matter what.

Why would God bother to place us here? Didn't he see it coming?

Hi, hello. I have been wondering lately if God knew what he was doing when he chose to place us humans on a floating speck in a black void and give us authority over it. God knows everything that we are going to do in our lives, every sin we commit, everything that he will be pleased with. He knows those who will follow him and all of those who won't. If he knew that Eve would eat the fruit then why would he even have bothered to create humans? Why didn't he just foreshadow what we would do and say "Oh, wait, maybe I shouldn't give them authority over their own place." Things just don't make sense to me. I fully believe God is our ultimate creator and that he loves us dearly but I don't understand why we were created this way. Wouldn't it have saved him the heartache if we weren't here? Life is so puzzling. I am exactly like my grandfather. I question everything. I feel as though my soul is searching for something. Something deeper.

Have you ever wondered if there is a point to this?

Hi, hello. Lately I have been wondering, whats the point of life? Not the meaning but the point. Every day I wake up in the morning get ready for school, go to school, come home from school, do school work, try and have a life. Whats the point of all of that? There must be something more than this sheltered north american life. While I sit in school all day there are people out in the world who are dying and some maybe never had a chance to experience the truth. Why am I sitting in a warm class sheltered from war and famine while they are out there with no one but each other and dying without hearing about the reason for living. I feel as though I am searching for something. Something more than a sheltered american lifestyle. Is there any point to us living here? I don't doubt God in fact I have a fairly solid faith. I think that because I am so confident in my faith that is why all of these questions have been coming into my head. All those thoughts about a greater purpose. I think that God has opened my eyes to see that there is more to life then the way I am living it. Better things out there than safety.

Have you ever wondered what is going to happen to people in your class after high school?

Hi, hello. So lately I have been wondering about what my ten year reunion is going to look like. I know that I haven't graduated yet but its only a few months away. I mean you see the "popular" crowd parading down the halls pretending they own the place. Everyone wants to be with them and go to parties just to be classified as them. Personally I don't want that. Those are the types of girls that lost their virginity back in grade 9 and are easy for males to get their slimy hands on. They aren't hard to deal with and the male can reach out and grab their heart and stomp on it. After he leaves they just go on to the next guy that will pretend to love them. I have heard several of them going on about being in a high career and whatever but meanwhile the partying every weekend makes its dent in the grades. The chances of achieving highly at university are slipping away and they party all the time. Eventually they end up coming back to the small town and work a dead end job. Maybe that is very stereotypical of me to say but I am sure that we all have those in our high school. To all those people who want to be one of them, dream bigger than that. High school is four years and the rest of your life is ahead of you. In ten years no one is going to care what you were in high school and in your career or in university they really don't care. Be your self. I can't wait to see where everyone ended up in ten years.

Sometimes don't you just want to crawl into a dark hole?

Hi, hello. Sometimes I just want to crawl into a deep dark hole; or maybe actually a light hole that is isolated from the rest of the world and wait until God makes everything right again. I seriously am hating my life right now. Don't worry I am not suicidal or anything but between school, exams, and extra homework on top of that I am so stressed I just want to cry all the time. Between that and some family problems going on its horrendous. Needless to say I am almost crying as I publish this post and the only reason why I haven't let the tears fall is because everyone will wonder after why my eyes are red and ask if there is anything they can do to help. Sometimes those people who only are your friends when there is a situation going on are very annoying. Let's face it, we all know the truth.

Prime Minister

Hi, hello. I recently sent a letter I had written into the prime minister of Canada discussing abortion. I told him my thoughts on the issue. Several of the examples I used were very good I thought and I had a friend read it who thought is sounded very professional and she hadn't thought of a lot of what I said. I would post it on here but unfortunately I don't know how to attach it. I received a letter in response back. It wasn't directly from him but he had requested this particular assistant to send me a letter in response. They thanked me for expressing my concerns and stated that the prime minister is always interested in the opinion of young Canadians. He also stated that my comments have been carefully noted. I was incredibly excited to get this letter. It is starting to make me think. Maybe I don't have to wait for graduation to reach my destiny. Maybe I have been watching it out the window all along but just kept walking by.

almost christmas

Hi, hello. So its almost time for Christmas once again. Another year has flown by and I am just that much closer to my destiny. So the movie Salt came out today and that is one of my most absolute favorite movies. Angelina did an incredible job in it providing both the intense action sequences and the drama that should go right along with it.The point of this post was that I rented the movie and was then watching special features. I was watching the commentary with the director and he began talking about how after a month it was released to the public there were illegal downloads splashed all over the internet. He went on to talk about that one of his friends went bankrupt due to pirated films of his. I had never thought of that when people illegally download films it would have an impact like that. IT does so just don't do it. People think that these movies are produced for our enjoyment for free and they are too cheap to pay to watch it. The truth is that the only reason they are still around today to produce movies is because we pay to watch it and so they have money to produce it. If we stopped paying then eventually they wouldn't be able to afford to produce it. The director expressed his concerns that maybe one day there won't be movies in theatres or anything like that because it gets stolen from them and they go bankrupt. I can't help but wonder if maybe, just maybe he is right.